Thanks everyone!!!! And yes I know I need the face to face communication, I guess it what just not what I had expected. The funny thing is that as I was driving home from the meeting, I told myself that I do need to go again simply because if just one meeting was making me think that hard then there is something that I must not be understanding. Lexi, my personality is one that I had to stop myself from going to the bookstore tonight to buy the book. I would have stayed up and read it so I could go to the next meeting to argue! I am tired of arguing and just want to work on recovery, so maybe I am finally growing up.