Thank you for that clarification! (I do understand what you are saying now and I've been in similar situations)
Meditation, urge surfing, replacing your addiction with something that is not compatible may help you (music, hobbies, crafts, exercise, cooking.....). Only you can figure out what else makes you happy. Maybe think of a bunch of things and just write them down....try one at a time, see what can help you.
Remember, your brain needs to learn how to make it's own happiness again, and this can take some time to do. Be gentle on yourself now.
You CAN stay stopped! YOU are worth it!
Hugs,