You must have stumbled into a not-so-great AA meeting. They happen, and even great groups can have an "off" night. The meetings I go to are full of hope, we laugh a lot (at ourselves and some of the silly places our own thinking has led us), and blame and self-pity are rarely seen.
I'd suggest you try some different meetings. Each group has its own personality, so to speak, and finding the right group can make all the difference in the world when you have those rough days that you (rightly) suspect may come along before too long.
In addition, YOU are different now. YOU have decided you should quit drinking, whereas when you went before, my bet is that you were looking for a way that you didn't belong with "those people."
