Mine and Sazzle's story is almost identical too!
I've drank when I didn't want to. I've stood in line at the grocery store with a bottle of wine thinking oh my god I don't want to drink this so why the hell am I doing it?? This must be what it feels like to be possessed!
This is my second time at quitting. I quit back in June and for some unknown reason went back to it. This time, I'm feeling the light bulbs go on in my head as I read more and more here. Finally just accepting that I am an alcoholic.
This time my desire to not drink completely outweighs the knowledge that I need stop.
I wish you all the best! Stick around here!!