Hi! I am new too. You seem to be very intelligent and a high functioning alcoholic. I've lived a double-life for so long that people think I am joking if I tell them I don't want to drink. My wife still seems to be in denial that I am an alcoholic with a capital A. Definitely stick around. I have been reading a lot of threads here and it is amazing how similar the stories are to my own. It helps to find people who really understand.