Originally Posted by
gleefan 
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" What ends up happening is I have a hangover, then in a day or two when I feel better, I drink again, and end up with another hang over, and so on. I've told myself that I'm going to stop drinking, but never ever followed through..."
This is powerlessness.
No power to resist the drink even after we have sworn off.
No power to resist the drink even when we have children to care for.
No power to control it once we start.
Someone taught me something years back.
What was the intention...to have a couple of drinks.
What actually happened...I overdrank...again...etc.
Who did it harm? Fill in the blank
and
the cycle of spree and remorse...we keep repeating it over and over again.
This is powerlessness.
I would suggest that you read the book Alcoholics Anonymous.