I can so relate to what you are saying. I call it being painfully normal.
But the reality of it all is I only ever wanted to hide from it all. Not live it because I never deserved it... What ever the hell it is...
But there is no better way to change mood than to take myself on a date. Remind me why I am worth it. Maybe treat myself to a gift. Nothing big. Maybe make myself a good meal. Nothing fancy.
Just tell myself that I am worth it.
I drank last night so I am no expert on avoiding the drink. But I have long spent efforts learning to change my mood. It's only me who can do it!