Also, just saw the film "Flight" which was pretty inspiring to me. It is amazing how many similarities I feel I have with Denzel's character... I am blown away by the actions and idiosyncrasies he displays; they are so similar to me and the many addicts (basically all of my friends) I know. It sucks to wake up and realize that all of your friends are just like you and enable and laud your self-destructive behavior @_@