to SR! We are here to support you in your goal of staying sober. There are many ways to stay sober: AA or other programs, counseling, and this site, just to name a few.
It sounds like you've been blessed so far not to have gotten a DUI or killed yourself or someone else while drunk. Now can be your time to stop the damage and start a better sober life. It starts by not drinking today, just for today don't drink. Tomorrow do the same.
I wish you the best in rebuilding your life.