This is often the turning point toward something we have desperately needed but were afraid to reach for or could not name. You are at a turning point, Chloe.
I have had times just as you are having now. And I did what you have done. I asked people to pray for me. I was in trouble. I was flattened by the pain of loving an addict who was in no shape to love me back.
Chloe, all who read your words are with you. Hang on. This pain and exhaustion is taking you somewhere important.
And drink a lot of water to replace what you are losing in tears. Just hang on and wait and see what God is up to in all this.