Sounds to me like you have a problem if you end up drinking when you don't want to .
I certainly recoment to all my friends and family to try 90 days sober to see how alcohol influences their lives and how they feel without it .
I started by reading , some of the big book of AA , some of allan carr's book , the forums here and other sites .
In the end i just had to do it ..
Bestwishes, M