This is my story too but now I have 58 days and if a fcukup like me can do it u can too!
My plan
1) go to meetings
2) got an experienced sponsor ( kicks my sorry selfish ass!)
3) weekly 12 stepping
4) text and call guys in my home group
This has worked for millions and it can work for u too, I will tell u that my experience is that I work between 1-2 hours a night on my recovery, that's a fcuking **** load of work ESP with a family that includes 2 teenagers neither of which drive. I'd rather putz around watching TV or surfing the Internet for lulz but I am finally growing the FCUK up which is good bc I'm 45 and not 13. When ur 13 u only want to do what makes u happy, well, I can't be the person I was made to be with a mind full of boozy thoughts. I'm sure to relapse ( hate that word slip, it's no fcuking accident when I drink) if I don't execute my plan?