Cleo - Sending love over there to you.
Stop being mean to yourself. You owe us no apology.
I hope you'll continue to be your cheerful and positive self. That's part of who you are. Just remember we're here to share the pain and tears, too. I think it's great that you shared what happened with us - that's what we're all here for - to hold each other up when we fall. You'll be stronger and more determined now. It's going to be ok.