Hey Cleo. Big big hugs to you xxx.
Your posts are just a ray of sunshine on this forum, I always enjoy reading them.
Your ability to make people smile is a gift.
Now there's life after relapse....it's not the end of the world ok?
I was in the same position as you in May, I had gone a couple of months, then I drank one night. I was devastated, I felt ashamed, all the same feelings you have expressed. But I'm now nearly 8 months sober.
There is no need to say sorry to us, we all understand and support!
Get rid of the booze. Don't drink any more.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You can do this.
I believe in you xxx