Just for today I will not drink
For me early sobriety is like waking from a deep sleep.
I can pretend like the past was all just a bad dream.
Skillfully executed to make me think I was nothing... A loser... A drunk drugged out freak.
Orchestrated at the highest levels all to make me believe what was is.
A cliche of someone out of control and on the ride of his life. Never stopping long enough to see where I had arrived.
It was not a dream. I have assured myself. Today my dreams are about my future and not my past. They embody the hope that being sober gives me and I embrace it with joy.
There is a lot of good to come from this if I make it so. Ride my pink cloud off into the sunset.
For today... Just for today. I will not drink.