That was me. I believed the program could and would work for other people, but really didn't think it would work for me. I would attend meetings, using it mainly for a social club to "fix me." I still felt like an outsider for a long time. I saw other people working steps, getting sober, and remaining sober. I wasn't working a program, and I didn't stay sober. I felt like the newcomer in the revolving door. I felt like I would always be a permanent newcomer. I am glad that I decided to give it a try. It works.