Originally Posted by
CatFry 
I beleive in a higher power, but do not get along with it very well. As someone who is trying to begin step 2, I can't help but feel that possibility is the key. I do believe that a HP could restore me to sanity. I doubt that it will, but it is a posssibility.
I too am struggling with the HP. However, something has to be helping me along. I don't know, maybe it is, maybe it isn't.
So I figure I have nothing to lose at this point by opening up to the possiblity that maybe it is. My ego got me in trouble to begin with so I need to let my ego go.
I have been struggling in the sense that I just wish I could be 100% better and never have to worry about this stuff again. But I know that I can't do that. I need to believe in something and I need to find something that will keep me going forward. If I don't I'm scared my ego will be the end of me. So that is why I am going to give AA and the HP thing an honest try and to keep my mind open.
Not sure it this makes any sense at all!