GRITS, I'm so glad you have an appt. with your Dr. next week. Is this a therapist that you're having an hour long session with? Not just an MD whose going to write you script, right?
From your post above, I can hear a lot of stuff in there where you have a lot going on inside your head that you need to get out. I hope you'll keep moving forward, and keep posting.
I am seeing my primary doctor tomorrow and asking him to put me back on anti-depressants and on Monday my first session with a therapist.
:ghug3