It's not so much I hate myself but I do want to continue to make choices that I can live with. The longer I do the better I am feeling.
I just posed that question to myself so I an actively consider what I am working at this for. If I don't keep that out front then I will get lazy about this. And that's not ok.
I love being sober.
Fallow... That's true... It takes more energy to not like myself. More to drink than not drink as well.
Thanks for all the encouragement. I am feeling much better tonight than I did this morning. Work was rewarding today.