I like myself sober, I didn't hate myself drunk but sober I hate the waste of time years and years of shallow boring drunk not to mention the realy vile drunk moments ,though I do miss the occasional rip roaring drunken funny outburst but then I haven't given myself much space yet for that to happen sober a fact I'm looking foreward to. Fingers crossed.
When drinking I would often talk of drinking through self hatred and anger but less so now I certainly drank for courage or confidence but I see now it wasn't the best route.
I am happier sober and glad to be here.
If I drank tomorrow I would not hate, but be angry with myself, and that's a huge improvement.
Love John.