Thanks for your replies. My plan is to get up tomorrow. Call my work and sort things out with them, I have a line till next week but I'm not sure if I should use it. I'm going to go to an AA meeting that I've attended before and get back to that.
I need to get in control of this again. I was doing so well before Christmas, I had been sober for almost one month, then the holidays came. Its just spiralled out of control since then.
Thanks for your support.
K