You know my prayers are with you too. In the end, all we can do is pray. He knows we love him, he knows we are here to cheer him on, and that is all we can do.
Recovery is so much more than just doing a program. While that helps and gets them clean and on their feet, the real recovery starts when rehab is over. You'd think they would learn that recovery is a life time program and that they have to change if they want to change. My son gets complacent, usually finds a girlfriend (I'm grateful that there is no gf on the scene right now) and then they lose focus. And the cycle continues.
That is why I am not afraid to let him fall. To cushion the fall might delay the journey and that delay could kill him.
It is a gift to be able to turn this over to my Higher Power and let go. I cannot live my life in his disease. I can only live in my recovery.
Thank you all for being here and caring. That alone gives me great comfort.
I love you all.