Thank you all, ever so much.
Thank you, English Garden, for your wisdom and compassion. Thank you all for being here.
It is better to feel the pain and release it than to swallow it. Sometimes it is just so clear that it is over, that all is gone, and then the pain is so searing that I want it back, good, bad, indifferent, I just want it back. As if that would make the pain stop.
Tomorrow will come, I will sleep till then and wake and hope for better.
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