Thank you. I hear your compassion.
I honestly don't want to live in a world where this is a possibility.
Lots of terrible things can happen to people and I just have to cope somehow.
I do ok.
Like your husband said, I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND.
And I have "educated" myself - I am not a dumb person - it's about beliefs - I tried to explain what my beliefs are.
I just think it is wrong and immoral to hurt yourself or other people - I know I have hurt myself or other people, unconsciously, but once I became aware, then it is a different thing - doing something that you deliberately know is wrong or not healthy - I will never grasp that - there is nothing anyone could ever say that would make it make sense, because it doesn't.
I need to do something else - to think of something else. I shouldn't have posted.