Hi Lisbeth. I'm glad you're realizing things needs to change. I wish I had, before my life became a nightmare.
I once drank like you - just to relieve stress & monotony. (Yes, I agree caring for our children shouldn't be stressful, but I felt the same.) In the end I was completely dependent on it - and drank all day. This will never happen to you. I hope you'll find it helps to be here. We all understand the feelings you're having.