Yes IAmFIRST, it does feel weird to have no emergency contact to put down! I also have no family.
But, fine--so it stings. This too shall pass....
Meanwhile, every step you take, every action to do what your wise Self knows is best for you, is a step towards healing. Keep moving forward with the determination to do the best you can towards your goal of beating illness. People and things will appear and support you when you need them. Notice and appreciate.
I think it's just fine that you're crying every hour. Of COURSE you are! You have a right to.
I will be sending you my prayers as well. May all the support and the best doctors show up when you need them. May friends appear to help. May you easily let go of the A and remember that you're better and happier without the pain he causes.
May you keep taking the next best step.
These are my prayers for you.
Love,
Cindy