Hi again everyone
I'm still going strong altho some days stronger then others. its been now a month in my new house and loving it.
after a few weeks of nothing from AXW I got a TXT out of the blue from her tonight. "I'm not giving up on you. You are my husband. I'm giving you time and space because it seems to be what you need but I'm not letting go. I Love you."
and ever as i type this i get another txt. YAY lol.
So i got my sister to tell me three bad things about her just to stop my mind going to where i knew it would be going.. the whole "maybe things will be different this time"
but it also got me thinking about my own coping idea.
and I think what I'm going to do is get myself a jar and label it "Clint's Jar of Happyness" when ever i have a good day that I am happy and looking forward to the future. I might put something into it. a small chocolate or something like that. So I can see my jar filling to remind me how happy I am.
then when im feeling a bit down and mourning what was or could have been etc etc. i can take a choccy from from my jar of happyness, because im not happy at that time. and I can see my happyness go down, and i can remind myself why I dont need her in my life.