Hi,
I can certainly relate with you. I'm riddled with fear myself and am absolutely TERRIBLE at reaching out. My fear and isolation is what brought me to my knees. I'm trying but it's hard.
Do your best to focus on the positive. I know....it's hard....but try as hard as you can. It truly does make a difference.
You're in my thoughts & prayers for your success. You're facing a scary and difficult situation but take heart that all on SR are in your corner.