Originally Posted by
EnglishGarden 
You don't have to be anyone other than who you are.
Thank you EG! It is 7am in the morning and I have a hectic work schedule today - but I am sitting here reading your reply and all I want to do is cry. I have such an overwhelming sense of loss - I feel such pain. Pain that I have never felt before. I think of my son every minute. I will never expose my son to this. I need to work my recovery quietly and privately. It is so so difficult.