Hi BelovedSleep - welcome
I think staying sober for someone else can work...for a bit...I've never seen it work terribly well long term tho.
That drive to stay sober needs to come from within us I think, because external circumstances or constraints won't always be applicable or won't always be there.
Do you still think drinking makes you more interesting?
Maybe it's worth while thinking about what you're trying to achieve with your drinking and why you don't seem to like who sober you is.
Might be a start anyway?
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