Then there are the times when something really good seems to be in the horizon and I express it out loud and it all falls out (my expectation). I remember nearly a year ago when my RAS was coming out from under one of his relapses. He seemed to be having a spiritual awakening and I was hopeful for him. What happened is my expectations were getting ahead of life experiences. He was then and still is awakening spiritually but I wanted him to get from A to Z without going through all the letters in between. That's not how life is. We all have our own journey and we can't speed the process up as much as we'd like to do so. We get frustrated and disappointed. Living in the now really is the way to go. Don't dwell on the past, the future is not here yet--all we have is this moment we are experiencing.