I know how you feel, I have a hard time praying and all that comes with it. I fully believe in god I just am not good at praying I suppose. I read somewhere to just fake it til you make it. Do the prayers even if you just feel like you're talking to thin air. You'll start to notice a change and it will become more "normal" I have been trying it and it seems to be working day by day. Not all of us have the eye opening spiritual experience that others seem to and that's ok. We are all different and no one way works for all. In my humble opinion I would suggest that you just try it for a week and see if you notice a difference. Good luck my friend and my condolences for your loss. This is definitely a serious issue and one that can be beat 24 hours at a time with some work and faith. I hope this helps.