I had sent you a private message.
what are you willing to do to stay stopped and help yourself?
AVRT
SMART
Women for Recovery
Rational Recovery
Life Ring
Power to Quit
are alternatives to AA and are all online, as is AA
You are definitely NOT alone in your situation. I know of others who are in the same situation, as I am, although I don't have a 5 year old.
I wish you well on your sober journey!