I am firm believer in in-house rehab. My brother went through it and changed his life. He drank a great deal every single day, and used prescription drugs. He has no self control whatsoever. He too had legal problems. He has been sober/drug free for 6 years now. He moved out of state (very good thing), found a good job, and lives in a completely different setting (South Dakota). He loves it and is doing fantastic. And he didn't get sober until he was 53 years old. Have you considered rehab? I do think some people have to, as someone else said, surrender yourself to the fact that you can't drink (me included). Ever. Consider rehab if you can.