Drayer, I woke up just digusted with myself. Depressed, but I see a huge ray of hope. I hope you come to also. Alcohol is a terrible depressant and I do hope you can stay strong and see that life can be so awesome without it. I know that and still screw up. But I heard something this morning on a talk show...a man said that he was tempted to party with friends, but made a choice every time to NOT. He asked himself, every time, do you want to go, and wake up feeling horrible again? Or do you want to wake up feeling good and feeling strong, ready for the day? Kinda hit me this morning...so true. Hang in there, and come back here.