Hi drayer,
I have been in your shoes many times and understand that feeling of hopelessness you feel. Your emotions are still being affected by the alcohol. I could never get past 24 hours sober because of the crushing anxiety and depression that comes as the booze leaves your system. I relapsed a month ago and went on a 4 day bender of drinking every waking hour. I knew I had to get a grip and prepared myself for a few days of misery. It's not easy, but it has to be done. You will feel like a new person after a few days. Give it a shot!