Thanks so much for replying. I personally would never not accept someone wanting recovery because they hadn't lost enough. I applaud someone that can ask for help before it gets that bad because that's something I was never able to do.
I am really trying to stay hopeful that I will have the patience to continue to take this one day at a time and things will eventually get better for me.
I know I do need to work on asking for help when I need it; I just isolated myself so much in my addiction and I have just burned so many bridges at this point, I don't know whom to ask for things like a ride to find employment or to take care of my legal issues. These are the things that are overwhelming to me.