I know how you feel. I had 6 days before yesterday and then I succumbed to the pressure I was feeling cause of the holiday and a recent break up. So I'm back at day one...again...it's ok though cause I didn't drink today and that's what's important. I am attending a meeting tomorrow and hope to get a couple of numbers so that I can fight these urges and don't give in to that cunning and baffling enemy that is alcohol. Good luck to you friend and it will get easier. I don't have the experience in sobriety to say it from that standpoint but I have the misery in alcohol to know it will as long as we don't drink.