Does any one else do this??
Often times, I feel like if I say something positive to a friend like - Oh, I am doing great, things are really going good....I am "jinxing" myself.
I can even remember when I was younger - I would tell myself that "tonights party or event was going to be boring" - then I would know that I would have a great time. If I "expected" a great night, it was usually a bust...which often seemed the case for a night like New Years Eve.
Or...I know I am not going to get that job, then I would get it.
It is the complete opposite of positive thinking. It's like I have trained my brain over the years to have low expectations so great things would happen. And it worked.
In some ways I am afraid to have positive thinking because I am afraid to be disappointed and hurt!
Does anyone understand this thinking??