I kinda disrespect myself and now I have to reset my clock ... It's no longer 35 days - its 0 starting today. In addition, I do not want to go to AA meetings - for some reason I believe I can handle my problem without them.
Another thing - I am doing ok in my life : I got a good job , finishing my MBA , working out . As the result, I always tell myself that my drinking is not that bad if i can handle those things and keep drinking . But since I am here, I want to stop and be more prosperous in my life and never feel ashamed for things I've done while drunk . I also do not want to feel horribly the next day