While initially learning about, acknowledging and trying to change my codependency, I felt defective in a way. I felt angry I had "this problem." It seemed so overwhelming at times.
Today, I am excited about it. It has brought about change, growth, accountability and strength. I love learning about myself now. For years, I was bored with the idea of "self help" books. I never even finished Eat, Pray, Love because it stirred something in me I couldn't understand.
I know I have a long way to go, I still get confused, relapse here and there, and occasionally overwhelmed still but in all honesty....I look forward to the challenge that is before me. Being stagnant was the boring-est time of my life. Working on me has been one of the most exciting times in my life. In many ways, I wouldn't change a thing.