Alecia,
We're all addicts here. Some of us are addicted to people, others control and still others drugs/alcohol. We're all trying to kick our habits and learn newer healthier ways of living. Step 1 - We admit we are powerless over (insert your item of choice here) - that our lives had become unmanagable. If this sounds like something you are familiar with, you're in the right place.
Take a few deep breaths and try not to react. I know that I rarely make good decisions when I am in react mode. Keep coming back and read, read, read. There volume of good stuff at SR is astounding.
Just for today - give it to your HP.
Petunia