If you recognize that you're romanticizing it that's a huge step forward. The ability to tell the difference is what can keep you sober. Keep thinking until you get through to the other side. I remember the good times drinking but mostly try to focus on the not good times-the embarrassment, the chances taken, the awful smell, the time wasted, whatever it takes to kick start the smart part of my brain that wants no part of it.
I used to bartend on holidays so people would have a place to gather rather than sit home alone so I understand what they meant. I received a lot of heartfelt thanks so I know it made a difference for some people. It was never a big drinking time either, more like friends at a house party singing carols,etc.
Congrats on almost 90 days-that's a lot of solid sobriety
