Always hate to hear people are suffering from trying to stay sober. I in fact fight the fight as well, no denying that. But that's just my trigger to fire up the knowledge of what I've been learning and applying to my life to stay sober. First I admit that I cant drink a little bit, now or ever. Then I remind myself what kind of life I have been pursuing and why. And of course reading the posts here is huge help. If it gets to bad I grab the phone an call the sober buddies to go do something together or just talk. For me it has only been since march but it's working so far. Good luck.