Thread: And So It Starts...
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Old 12-24-2012, 05:19 PM
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RaleighGirl
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And So It Starts...
Well, tonight I cry to myself (jeez only on day two!). I actually remember why I started drinking in the 1st place. I have had this evening bad feeling since I was about 8. A feeling like someone was going to die or something terrible was going to happen. I just buried it until about 29 and then I stated casually drinking with a neighbor at night. Then I realized I could actually drown out the feeling if I drank myself to sleep every night with rum. This went on for 5 or so years minus the 5 month of sobriety last year.
Well tonight my old friend is back...I dont even want to drink, I want to feel better. I cant drink, I know what will happen next, feel better ( I think), sleep (but not good sleep) then a slow groggy morning begging for at least 2 more hours of sleep.
I feel better now that I have vented a bit But I would like to hear how others deal with the sudden slam in the face of anxiety from sobriety. Thank you so much as always for listening!
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