Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Just keep on trying and hopefully things will get better. Don't give up now. You might want to take a good look at how much you drink as being a problem to how you feel. You have a long life still ahead of you. It is all about what you make of it. Hang out here at SR and you will get some good advice from a lot of people. Good luck on you journey in life. Love and Respect. Logo