Please don't do the "easy" thing and drink.
It will be the worst possible thing to do on your present feelings.
And,.................do you really think one glass of wine is enough?
Not for me.
If I broke out, I wouldn't stop at one.
I have said before, I physically could go a few more rounds with booze.
Mentally, I am done. Torture, pure and simple.
You can't unring a bell.
The bell has rung. You have called time on your drinking for a reason.
It stopped working and it was causing problems.
It will never work again, and all those "yets" will happen eventually.