Hi Avocado, I'm certainly no expert, but I know for me, I could never seem to stick to it when I planned out a quit date. I had what I fondly call a "spontaneous combustion" when I quit. I woke up one morning and realized I'd consumed WAY more than my share of drinks for a lifetime, and that I was desperately, suicidally unhappy. I thought there must be a better way.
I had never before kept a promise to myself, but I decided just for that day I wouldn't drink. That was 16 months ago.
It sounds like you're pretty unhappy in your current situation. What are you willing to do today to change it?
Wishing you the very best Avocado :ghug3