Hi Mrs Lamp, you haven't failed you just haven't been given any help yet. If we could all just stop by ourselves then we wouldn't be here in the first place. I really tried by myself for a year and only ever got as far as day two and always felt like a failure. After having this properly medicated and monitored detox this week I'm now on day 8. This is the longest time ive been sober in the last nine years. Things might not happen over night with your doctor and don't feel guilty for drinking whilst they assess you.just setting the wheels in motion is a start and even that will make you feel more positive. There is always hope! : )