Hello everyone I'm back, head is sore and I'm hungover. On my second mug of tea DAY 1. Alcoholic and married to an alcoholic, we have traveled the same road, enabled each other, There were drunken promises to fix this thing, He is as miserable as I am. I dont know if I care any more. I've got to believe there is a way out. I don't even have a tree up in the house. Then I feel very selfish reading that back because in the great scheme of things going on in the world what does it matter. I have stuff to do today with my kids, lots of make up will be needed and lots of lies. They have plans for Christmas and that is suiting us as we don't have to bother. My Mum died a just over a year ago and you know I have hardly shed a tear? I don't want feelings, maybe that is it. thanks for all the support again. I'm not sure if I should start a new thread or do I keep using this one, will people still reply to this?. x I will see what happens.